I AM IN CONTROL.

 

Why are we enslaved by the worries, pain, failure, heartbreak, financial instability, joblessness, misery in our lives to the extent of throwing care to the wind. Each moment we are alive & breathing, the strong urge to throw ourselves over the edge of a cliff becomes so intense as we seek a way of ending it all. Shackled like our forefathers when they travelled the seven seas to unknown lands, we are scared, confused & even perpelexed at the thought of a new beginning & change.

Why do we allow ourselves to continue down the path of destruction knowing that our very actions are what will be our final downfall. Over & over again you go with the flow of society's mindset & embrace the structured way of life laid out for you. Do you not have a voice to shout at the roof top of the tallest building & boldly proclaim, "enough is enough I am in control".

Change starts with you, if you want a different result in your life you better step up or get off. This is a viscious cycle, if you don't take your stand in life you shall forever hold your peace & become the punching bag of that which is wrong with this world. I do understand that life is hard, who said it will be easy. You are not here for a joy ride but for a purpose that needs to be fulfilled by you & not anybody else.

Let me just ask, what do you think is the path you are meant to follow in this life? Each day you are told that the journery of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Have you decided to take the initiative of moving forward & making those dreams you have a reality by taking that first step? You need to man/woman-up & be your own hot bed of happiness, success as well as progress. 

Letting the problems of this world grab you by the throat & squeeze every ounce of hope will lead to your very demise. You need to get off the pity party & take a stand of revolutionizing your life. You are meant for greatness (if you don't believe it that is upon you, for I believe in you) & it is only you who is your worst enemy. Life is indeed a roller-coaster but you have to hold on & not let go no matter what. All in all you are the common denominator in this reality, you want change it has to start with you.

THE APPLE OF YOUR EYE.

 

"I love you my darling with all my heart, being & body. I will cherish you for a life time & relish the thought of growing old together with you. You are the woman after my own heart. The amber that ignites the firey love within me. The hands that steady me when I stumble, the shoulder I lean on when am down, the ear that listens to my cry. Your eyes are a gateway to your heart, where I will solely handcuff myself for eternity. Each moment spent with you sparks a deeper sensation of belonging. I am yours now & till the heavens beckon me".

"Do you have anyone special in your life? Or is your heart shackled to another who has the key to the lock?" These are examples of questions raised at times when I grace social gatherings or events. Other times it is usually, "who is the unlucky lady who has been entrapped by your sly tongue?" At such times that is when one would like to reply, "I am in a union with Jesus, who satisfies me in every way", but for not wanting to sound rude I simply reply I am 'hitched'.

Anyway, when you are with a life partner (that is if the heavenly Father has directed a damsel in need of some loving your merry way) you get to learn real quick that no one is meant to be taken for granted. Each decision you make has a ripple effect on how your partner & you get along. For one never knows the real value of a well until it runs dry. Most of you are now thinking to  themselves what is this chap upto or has he gotten the love bug.

Well ladies & gents (if there are any amongst you, though I highly doubt it but for now I will give you the benefit of doubt) the reality of life these days is that all manner of relationships that have cropped up are mostly based on convinience & not the truer definition of love (more of mi casa es su casa). We are more so after the desires of the body, only wanting to quench our thirst & urges. It is saddening that we lost our way just like the betrayal by Judas of our Lord & Savior, only for him to realise his mistake when it was already too late. 

Most people just take for granted their lover's, boyfriend's, girlfriend's, fiancée's, fiance's, wives or even husbands (am not pointing any fingers at anyone  but just stating a known & standing fact). We need to embrace the truth & come to terms with the harsh reality that nothing in this world is cast in stone, everything in this life has a beginning & an end. We fail miserably to appreciate with whom we started a friendship with the assumption that it will always be a small paradise between the two of you. 

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise! Things can take a tumble leaving you all perplexed, confused & in a state of painful memories. If you do not take the initiative of trying to make things work between you & your partner, your relationship will become a minefield with either of you ready to explode at the slightest provocation. Any form of union between individuals needs to be based on trust, communication, loyalty & honesty. 

What I simply mean is that when you are 'hitched' don't screw that up. You have an obligation to make things work between the two of you. Yes it is tough, yes it is challenging, yes it is energy draining, yes it is mind boggling but when you are on this journey of life having someone who has your back, sees your potential, who is your strength, your pillar, your one & only true love (though some of you may dispute the existence of true love, but hey it is what it is) there is nothing you can't face in this world.

"MTOTO UMLEAVYO".

 

"Mtoto umleavyo ndivyo akuavyo"African Saying. 

Is it true that how you raise your child will determine the end result of how they will grow up to be like? This is just a normal query, nothing to get you all fired up ready to hail insults my  way. It is a simple & direct question that has been nagging at the back of my mind. The reason I ask this, is because that is what am getting from the saying that I wrote at the beginning of all these.

In my own opinion, I think it is accurate or what do you think? Let us take a step back into memory lane, back to when we were growing up & we were young, wild & free. We were the kids in the block, riding around in our bmx bikes as we raced each other along the dusty roads of our estates. You would here laughter & jeering as we tried to out do each other, seeing who was the fastest, had the newest bike........

if you do get time, look at/study those individulas who were born in the 80s, how they carry themsleves around & how they interact with others. Tell me, what do you notice? Is there a difference as between them & the current generation that were given life just recently. Does there mannerism differ from those whom have come into the new world order. Those of the earlier time understood the meaning of respect, talking in a low voice, not talking back to the elderly or your parent (this could get you knocked out cold if you yapped about) & so forth.

One thing was for sure & it always stuck in our minds, when your mum said you had to be back in the house by 4 o'clock, my friend that was not a suggestion but a direct order delivered with the most lethal of smiles. Failure to adhere to the timeline given, I can assure you, you will be in for a whooping like you have never experienced before (I can even show you the marks on my legs, thighs & even behind to prove the fatality of the beating that had been unleashed).

You have heard that it takes a whole village to rise a child, well where I come am from that was in actuality a reality. Anyone could discipline you without been questioned, now come to the current times where if you try beating a child you will either get yourself arrested, taken to court or deemed as a sadist. Parents of the new world order kids, instead of disciplining their child, they give them time out (what the hell is time out) or worse off telling them they are grounded (who in their right mind tells a child they are grounded, the only grounded I knew was when my father's belt was working on my behind while I was horizontally proportionate to the ground, eiiish).

The current generation has gotten enslaved with the latest gadgets that are in the market. You find a child only 7/8/9 years old & he/she has a smart phone more expensive than your android phone. Instead of playing outside like we used to do, one is found playing candy crush & such like games unceremoniously. Anyway if you are bring a child into this world you better make sure that you understand that he/she is going to go out into the world & meet with other people of various cultures, backgrounds & ethnicities, teach them some damn respect & don't just let loose hooligans into the otherwise peaceful world.

DO YOU TRUST ME?

 

"Do you trust me? Like, do you really trust me!" (what the hell is going on here am guessing that is what you are asking yourself). Am still asking you, yes you the one reading this, do you trust me. Am guessing this sounds a bit strange, since you have no idea who I am or have never met me. This is quite a tricky scenario don't you think.

Just some strange individual & God knows from where telling you to put your trust in him. Huuh, am sure that has raised quite a number of eyebrows. No worries, we all have our own trust issues. Trust is loosely desrcibed as the firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability or strength of someone or something (anyway that is what google says not me).

Let me ask you a question, how come when you are told that there is a God you believe it but when you are told the paint is wet you have to touch it with your finger so that you can believe it to be so. Well, that is just how we are engineered in all our complexity, trust is one that stands out like a sore thumb.

"I have learned that it taks years to build up trust & only takes suspicion, not proof to destroy it". 

One of the crucial lessons that I have learned in this life is to trust God in every circumstance and situation. At times it may seem as if it is not worth it but once you get the grasp of how the Almighty Father works, you get to appreciate His way of tackling matters. Lots of times we go through different trials & following God's plan seems like it doesn't make sense at all. 

Just know that God is always in control & He will never leave you even though He may seem absent at the time. For when you are sitting for an exam, the teacher is not always there but you will still feel his/her presence. One needs to accept the feeling of not knowing where you are going. 

Training yourself to appreciate it, because it is only when one is suspended in mid-air with no landing in sight, that we force our wings to unravel & alas begin our flight. As we fly, we may not know where we are going but the miracle is in the unfolding of the wings. You may not know where you are going, but you know that as long as you spread your wings, the winds will carry you.

SAY WHAT YOU MEAN & MEAN WHAT YOU SAY.

 

"No! No! No! I told you am not interested, why are you pestering me like this. Leave me alone! Please just the tip, I won't go any further" (haaa the absurdity, how would you fall for such a line, but what do I know am just the middle person who gets the hearsay). Anyway my point is quite simple, if you are giving an assertive answer you better stick to it like the lies you used to tell your parent when you had eaten sugar & there were crumbs all over your mouth evidencing otherwise.

Yet there you were denying in all totality that your enemies are out to get you & finish your career. Well, that is life with its little twists & weird turns that suddenly crop up like the proverbial weeds. Why is it that we are so inclined to indulge others when in all honesty we are not in the mood to what they seek. They go like,"lets go to the club", then you go like, "sure, lets go" (damn, don't you have any moral fibre of denying every suggestion that is whispered in your tiny ears). 

"Half of the troubles of this life can be traced to saying yes too quickly & not saying no soon enough". - Josh Billings

Have you lost your freaking marbles, are you some sort of puppet being pulled by the strings. The only answer you know  is yes. We all reach a point whereby the yes that you utter so freely needs to be confirmed & turned around to a no otherwise there will be a wake of chaos waiting to ensue. Learn how to deny others the satisfaction of using your free will to comply to their terms. When you say that no, mean it like as if your life depended on it & let it stand out like a rebel flag flipping in the wind. An affirmative no saves lives.

"It takes effort to say no when our heart, brains, guts & most important, pride are yearning to say yes. Practice".

DON'T LET YOUR TONGUE BE YOUR DOWN FALL.

"Psssst listen, I have been struggling with some issues that is why I keep on falling behind in making my payments, but I promise you I will sort you out once things cool down. This life is taking a toll on me". Hmmm, am guessing you are all wondering what the hell is this one talking about, this doesn't even make sense. Is he high on something we don't know yet?

I assure you am in my most lucid of moments, it is just that am trying to give you a simple illustration of the kind of things that we say to others & how we handle them. Now am sure I lost you before even half the sentence was done. Here it is, as human beings we have a sense of need of most times telling others about our issues.

"Speak clearly, if you speak at all, carve every word before you let it fall".

Am not saying that it is bad to talk about them, but have you ever wondered (even if it is just a little bit) how did so many people know that I had that kind of problem. You see, what happens most times is that we share with those whom we consider close our deepest of secrets (if there are any to begin with) without second thought.

We open up the chamber of secrets & let loose all that is weighing us down to the tiniest of details. Most times (if you do pay close attention) you will see that those whom are listening to you are quite keen on what you are saying. They may seem as if they are sympathising with you but unfortunately they are taking in the juicy details of your misery to share with others.

You will become the topic of discussion at the bar dens (the kalocal joint), beauty salons, work places, behind your back (sometimes behind closed doors) as to how your life is just a pitful of misery. Yes, deceit takes all sorts of forms & you will be crushed knowing that those whom you could trust are the ones edging that knife deeper into your back.

 "Everything in your life is a reflection of a choice you have made. If you want a different result, make a different choice".

It is deemed that the tongue is the deadliest weapon that man/womankind possesses & has indeed led to the rise & fall of even nations. You better keep it in check otherwise you will learn that not all ears that listen are there to hear your story will give you a solution but rather are there to gather intel on you & discredit your well being.

SIMPLICITY AT ITS BEST.

  

We are  all searching for the secret of life or is it just me (I think I maybe by myself on this one). We are always searching how to get rich, become successful, to be the most loved, to achieve our dreams,  to maintain our body weight, to look sexy, to be young forever (this is just mythical), to have that killer six pack (this one is usually the tricky one to most men). Anyway is there really a secret to life? I don't know maybe you should tell me.

Once I know this secret, I will eventually leave all my burdens behind & enjoy the sandy beaches of paradise. Such are the silly little dreams that I have when am not busy trying to earn that coin. Thinking to myself countlessly, "when will I taste this paradise spoken so vaguely by those whom we claim have made it in life". Having the luxury of sitting back, sipping on those mocktails & soaking under the warm sun.

Isn't it funny, how most of us are looking for short cuts in life not knowing that if you want the best you better put in that effort. Just look at this photo that I have added to this post does it make sense to you. Does the phrase even ignite any thought or ingrain a bit wisdom to all your silliness. No! Nothing! Ooh well! I had thought you may at least make sense of it. Such a simple illustration which  brings so much clarity once you understand it.

Well then, I will keep reminding you that life is all about how you view it & manage to face off all sorts of tiny demons that  are out to get you. I do understand that we are all different but we all share the same space & that is this gorgeous earth (I think that is my description from all the photos I have seen taken from outer space).  Every day is a challenge, even though most of us take it to be a reckoning as nothing comes easy.

Know this, even though the earth is not such a magical place, we all have our different roles to play just like in a movie (each charater/actor or actress(didn't want to sound discriminatory) has what they bring to spice up the film). You may deem yourself as being unworthy, insiginificant or even unimportant but you better watch out for whatever you confess you profess.

HOLD ON IT WILL BE ALRIGHT.

Do you recall that day you got sacked from your prestigious job or that day the landlord locked you out of your house or that day you lacked even money to buy food for your child. Suddenly a thought stuck you & you decide to go & seek refuge from that friend who claimed he/she has got your back. How did that go by the way, were you received with open arms like the way Jesus received the children of the Israelites. Or was it more of them pretending not to recognise you nor acknowledging  your existence like Pontius Pilate. 

Well it is tough out there, when you realise that those who boldly proclaimed allegiance to you are now deserting you in the same ninja move Judas pulled on Jesus or is it the denial phase Peter unleashed when he denied all knowledge of Christ (can you believe it three times without even breaking a sweat). It is such a downer when those whom you thought got your back are the ones who are pulling down the anchor around your neck. 

It is a known fact that when you are facing issues from all sides that is when you learn the true rainbow colours of those who said they were your friends through the good & bad times. You are left standed like the lone cactus in the Kalahari desert with no trees nearby for shade but only a mirage lingering in the far off distance. Puzzled, confused & in shock you wonder how you did not see this coming. 

All who claimed to be there for you, have left you hanging by a thread. Even then no one wants to lift a finger, cause they say that you problems are your own. It is such a pity that we are a crude, self-loving, selfish & self-centred people. Only interested in protecting our own. How did we get to such a point of pettiness where we stab the backs of those who thought we had their backs covered. 

When it all starts tumbling down like the walls of Jericho you will quickly learn that those whom you could have called friends were only wolves in sheeps clothing. It is better to have few, true & loyal friends than to have an army of useless leeches of so called friends. Most important of it all, when things are grey get on your knees & talk to the Almighty Father up in heaven. 

For when things are good, give thanks. When things are bad, give thanks. When things in your life don't make sense, still gives thanks. For there is always a reason as to why things happen the way they do & know that where there is a will there is a way.

LET US GRIND.

 

 

"One day am going to be rich, just you watch this space". Isn't that one of the lines we used to dish out like handouts when we were with our 'boyz' as more amptly put. Day dreaming of those riches, the fast cars, the beautiful big houses, the trophy wife, limitless credit card, the fat bank account & all goodies that follow the rich. Well, that is not such a far off reality. What it needs is strategy, planning & effecting a good, realistic solid plan. 

So, what am I all about today, well for starters today am in it for the money(don't get me wrong am not saying getting paid to do this but rather having the cash to do as you please). Let me take you back to when your were a youngster. Hanging out with your pals, going by the road side counting vehicles as they passed by claiming ownership of each, trying to see how many one can own. 

Yep, that is how we used to roll back in the day. Seeing ourselves as kingpins & tycoons with money overflowing like the river Nile. We all (maybe not all of us but am thinking sum of us) have a dream of becoming rich & financially stable. The downside is that life is quite a tricky affair with the hardships & all coming together like an ochestra. But am thinking if one puts their mind to achieve their goals nothing can stand in your way. 

Let us look at simple illustration. Have you ever seen that person at the office who is most times an hour or two earlier than the usual office hours or leaves past closing time. Why do you think he/she is there at that time. Is it because he will you say he/she is leaving late because they are timing the fare prices to drop(this could be so or not).Or just maybe they are thinking of making their work be part of their day instead of their day become part of their work. 

Thus they will in a few years time be able to enjoy the sacrifices they made. Ooh,  you think am pulling your leg, go ask any person who has made it in this life if there were any sacrifices they made to get to be where they are today. I know you want the flashy things that life has to offer, but know this if you want the best you need to put in that effort & sweat for it.

Let me give you another illustration just fro clarificatio purposes. When you walk down the streets of Nairobi (that is if you are fortunate enough to do so or some other town or city) at the wee hours of the morning lets say around 4-6am, aren't there offices that have already opened up for business? While you are there enjoying your beauty sleep, someone somewhere is trying to achieve his/her dream. 

Take this moment & try to figure out how do you spend each minute of your day, is it in a destructive or is it in a productive way. Once you have come up with an answer look at what you are doing whether it is beneficial or a waste of time. If you want to make a change in your life stop being used to make other people's dream a reality & start working on your own dreams.

THE SECRET OF SUCCESS.

What a privilege & honour it was to host the president of the United States within our colourful borders. Who would have thought that one day a sitting president, the world's most powerful man will make a visit to our country. It indeed was an eye opener, an insight to how the West views us in our shenanigans. 

That being so, if you ever followed the life of POTUS, you will see that his wife the First Lady has always been beside her main man. Even our own president, his wife has stood by him ever since time immemorial. It is clear to see that the women this men chose to have in their lives, made their lives more fulfilled & significant. 

Are you seeing the trend here, the kind of woman you have in your life can either mean your down fall or your rise like the Phoenix from the ashes. Now I addres the women reading this, are you lifting your man, supporting him or are you just there for the ride? Don't answer me, just think about it & see where you fall. 

Am not saying all men are focused with life but some do have visions & dreams which they wish to realize. It is all a matter of getting your priorities right.One may want his lady to be there for him, but you also need to show her that you are worth her energy not just to be a leech clinging on & draining all her strength. 

This is where you must device a plan of how you want to have your future looking like. You as a man have a responsibility of giving your lady something to respect, cherish & defend. Include her in some of your vital ideas, they may seem silly but you would be surprised that she is willing to go the extra mile with you. 

Ladies though a lee way is provided, reason with your man to fortify a logical future that suits both your needs, wants & dreams. Let us be each others pillar of strength through the trying times & know that we are meant to be there for each other. The key of making it in life is by setting down goals & ways of achieving those goals. 

Have a small book where you write those dreams you wish to fulfill. They may seem absurd, but you will be surprised when they start getting manifested in reality. Tick them off one by one as they get realized & materialize into a reakity. Just don't leave your woman behind, she may offer some insight you may have not thought of & come up with a brilliant plan which would be both fruitful & fulfilling. 

Let it be that the woman that is in your life, is the flame that ignites your fire. 

THIS IS MY BOOK, I WILL WRITE MY OWN STORY.

By show of hands, how many of us enjoy reading novels? Aaah, that is a good number. I see that most of you do, so do I. Well, novels really do take us to far away lands away from the norm. If you have read books by Dan Drown, Sidney Sheldon, Kevin Brodbin, Jeffrey Archer, John Grisham, Stephen Leather & such like phenomenal writers of their time, am sure they left you aching for me. Such is the world created by enticing novels, that leave you with a tiny vow of never judging a book by its cover. 

In the real world, life works in the same cycle only that we let the forces on earth be the author of how our lives shall pan out. It is saddening to see ones life lost in the whirlwind of chaos, despair, weariness & hopelessness. Where your every move is countered by life's own. Leaving you lost, confused, shattered & the more drenched in the slime of misery. Like every book which you read, the main character always faces some hurdles in pursuit of fulfilling his quest. 

At times it is a dragon, the police, his own family, an old flame, grave danger that stands in his or her way to reach his or her destiny. How we cheer, smile, laugh, applaud when your favourite character achieves their goal, gets the lady/gent, wins the war against crime or just gets the bad guy. Let us now look at your life, how similar is it to the characters in the books you get devoured by. It doesn't seem all different, huuuh. The difference between a book & you is that you have the capacity to change how your story ends unlike a book where the end can't be edited. 

You need to face life head on & believe that you can overcome this downward slope you are going. You have to swim against the current & forge your own path or otherwise you shall be dragged through life without a clue as to which direction to take. It will not be easy & I assure you that you shall be venturing out of your comfort zone. This will cause a strain to your normalcy, as you are used to a certain way of living. If you want to see change, you must take the first bold step & be that change. 

I GOT YOU.

 

 

"Do you believe in God?". Am not asking whether you are a Christian, just simply asking if you believe the existance of a far more superior being than man/woman & more powerful than anything you know. Well if you don't I have nothing against you. You have a right to your belief as so do I. We are all diverse in what drives us each day that we get to see another morning. 

As for me it is the ultimate love God has for me, cause if it were not Him I would not have been alive today. I know it is hard to swallow that you are awake today not because of your might but because God wills it. Such is the miracle of life, but lets forget that for a moment & focus on what happens when we are in trouble who do we go to. Let say you are in a vehicle & the brakes snap leaving your life in the hands of fate. 

What are the words you are most likely to utter at such an instance. Is it not, "Jesus save me". Why not use your name to save yourself. I don't mean to offend nor to seem rude, am just pointing out a simple fact. But since I have touched a sensitive spot let us move on swiftly. Many times when we are facing a crisis we seek divine intervention to save us from our woes. I will speak for myself, I believe in the Almighty Father up in heaven. 

Am not saying am holier than thou am just a person who has come to appreciate God's love even though am tainted with sin, God always has my back. I know at times He may not respond in time but his timing is always perfect. I had stayed for a couple of months without work, tarmacing the busy streets of Nairobi looking for a way to earn some income. Let me tell you, it was not easy it was gut wrenching, body tiring & mind boggling. 

Each day I woke up wondering where will I get my next meal. Wondering to myself, "will this torment end anytime soon?". What I hadn't realized was that God was working behind the curtains. You have heard the phrase, "when one door closes, praise God in the corridors". I experienced God's blessing like no other that I have ever felt. Then just recently I got a call from one of the senior members of society wanting me to help look at some files for him. 

I didn't know that was going to be my interview & my way to a promising future. In all, I have come to understand that God works in mysterious ways all you have to do is believe. Am not saying that you convert to my ways but rather you find something to believe in, if you choose to follow in Christ's footsteps the better. In this life, when God has your back you need not fear. 

PUT IT ALL BEHIND YOU.

"Hey you! Yes you!" Why are you looking behind you, there is no one there. Ooh, you thought I was just running my mouth, huuh! I get it, you are not used to people pointing at you nor talking to you. Always assuming it is the other person behind you who matters more than you. Well, welcome to the new world order. Where you matter, no matter how much you belittle yourself". 

Well here we are, a new day full of unexplored ideologies just waiting for you to  take the bold step & come forth to claim your rightful place on the throne. I know it feels absurd being thought of as someone of value, heck I would even be shocked if someone just appreciated me. 

No matter, there is always a first time for everything. Now off we go to the train of thought of today's journey. We all have a past, don't get me wrong but the question I pose to you is, why do we allow that which should be behind us affect our present lives & take control of the steering wheel. Ooh, you don't know, well let me tell you why. 

You are afraid of the things you don't understand! As the saying goes, "better the devil you know than the angel you don't know". We all love to build castles in the air yet withdraw ourselves from actually acting on our fantasies or is it dreams (you choose what you think fits best). You are alive today for crying out loud. 

You call it your present, a gift it is indeed. Why do you drag in your miserable shaddy past to the present moment, yet you are trying to create a better future for yourself. You don't know, me neither. It just seems that life has a way of working itself out. If that is how you want it to be so be it, but know this in life you may travel the open road with many others but it is only you who understands your true journey. 

In your quest for a better life, you better wisen up & stand firm in your belief of a better tomorrow. One thing you need to understand even though you don’t like it. It is either you keep on carrying the guilt & burden of your past to the present moment or you can drop them both & start a new for yourself focusing on a promising bright future. 

The choice is simply yours, either to be weighed down by your past failures & mistakes or to be elevated to the paradise of your choice. My advise to you, deal with the demons of your past & vanquish them using the holy oil to cleanse yourself of their stink. Then march forward with a clean & open conscious. 

In all that you do, don't let your past strangle your future into a lifeless form. A lot is at stake & requires you to wisen up & take charge. Live & let live for you are the pilot of your plane of life. 

MY HEART'S DESIRE.

 

 

"You my fair lady, look ravishing. Inviting to the eye, beholding at first glance & breath taking as you glide by. What did I ever do to deserve such a master piece yet am not at peace. Your hair blowing freely behind you as you transit from one point of life to another.

Your very eyes been windows to your soul, I just stare at the magnificence of your being. I long to touch your tender, glowing skin, to be embraced by your gentle arms & engulfed in your sweet fragrance. You my darling have captured my heart, as I swim into your eyes & handcuff myself to your stacato beating heart.

Every waking moment am taken a back, as I listen to your steady breathing while you sleep. Each intake of air pumping life into your very lungs. When you say hello to me, I stare & wonder at your cherry tasting lips & yearn for a kiss. Hypnotized by your unwavering smile, melting my ice cold heart.

Am humbled to have you by my side, as my companion, friend, lover, wife & mother to my kids. You have elevated me to greater heights & I vow to be your man till the end of times. Tough times may try to break us but as we are tough people we will last till our final breath. I thank God for bring you into my life, a treasure to be held close at heart.

My love you are the world to me, without you am nothing but with you am something. Thank you for being in my life, I will be your shoulder to lean on when you are weary, I will give you my hand so as to guide you in the dark, my ears will listen to your every whim & my heart belongs to no one else but you. For you are indeed my heart's desire".

I WILL DO IT TOMORROW.

"Tomorrow is still a good day, I will work on it then". How many times have you told yourself, I will study for the paper, I still have more than enough time on my hands? How many times have you left unclean dishes after a meal & said you will wash them later? Or better yet how many times has the boss given you a file to handle & you have told yourself you will look at it later? 

Well, those are just but a few of the scenarios I could think of relating to our so called "later syndrome". How we love to procrastinate about nearly everything. Choosing only to do that which ticks our fantasy & has a thrilling end to it. If only we could see the biggest picture & not just peep at the edges. I am not saying that we rush things but rather we organize ourselves such that we are accountable for each & every minute we spend. 

Do you deem yourself accountable of how each day you spend your hours from the crack of dawn to the fall of dusk? That is just a simple question you need to ask yourself. We keep in crying that time is money, yet we waste so many hours doing nothing constructive but rather soak in a tub of idleness. You have a responsibility to yourself to better make use of your hours. 

Yes I know that tomorrow will come but that does not mean that today you shoud throw care in the wind. It may not seem as much when you post phone events or work or updates on life but sooner or later time will catch up with you. Once that happens you will be all be your lonesome self looking for a way out & all doors will be barred. Let it be that what ought to be done gets done. 

WATCH YOUR BACK.

 

We all want to be role models to those around us, a good example to be used in conversations, an icon to be aped, a figure to be respected (maybe it was my imaginitaion playing tricks on me). So far it seems in my lucid moments I think the best of people & that all people can be humane but it seems those are just my own thoughts. 

No matter, I believe in the impossible though it may not seem like it to happen any time soon but one way or another those pearly gates of humanitarianism will be flung wide open. Life is such a tricky affair where the rule of life is survival for the fittest, with no one wanting to help the other attain a place of suprimacy nor of lavish living.

How hypocritical we are when we smile at each other when we are outside in the open yet back bite each other when we are behind closed doors. It seems we are indeed a source of the root of evil sipping through the cracks of humanity. We hug each other in the streets, only for us to be looking for soft spots in the back of our supposed friends so that we can stab them.

It is such a pity we are self absorbed lunatics out to get blood from our brothers, sisters, family, friends & sometimes our enemies. Is it not enough that we are crumbling as a nation that we allow this diceit to take root in our hearts. As proverb I heard a while back which said, "while you are sleeping your enemies are busy plotting against you".

We need to rise up as one, taking charge of the light & bring it to where the darkness has manifested itself like a leech sucking blood. You are your worst enemy, you nay not know it nor recognise it but if your heart is not in the right place you will tumble & fall like the walls of Jericho.

Let us build each other up to stand like the fortified walls of Israel. You can do it so can I, we are each others keeper & we need to endeavour to create a force field of oneness. Peace!

THE LAND OF MY PEOPLE.

 

Isn't it such a wonderful day to bask under the warm sun & sip on those cocktails as we take in the scenery or is it just my imagination running wild about the good times. Haaa, if that could be true we would be living merry lives. Right now it is so damn cold that the only meaningful relationship people are having is with their beds. You form such a tight bond with your blankets that you become part of them & you find it had to let go.

Anyway back to the land of my people, Africa! A continent so full of controversy, bad vibes, political mayhem, severe cases of life threatening diseases, financial crunches, war torn & yet with all this I still call it home. Ooooh, you thought that I would renounce my place of origin just like Judas renounced Christ, hell no that is not going to happen any time soon.

Yes this is a place full of all kinds of evils & all sorts of monsters in the closet but it is still where my heritage is from & am not ashamed of it. Am not saying that we live in a perfect world but we need to learn to appreciate where we come from. I have heard stories & talked to people who have left their homeland to venture out and go overseas (either to study, pursue a dream & such like) & most have have vowed never to come back.

Well, if that is what will make you sleep better at night so be it. Life is full of choices that either make us or break us & it is in all that, that you will learn you are the common factor. Where you hail from regardless of how native it is should not be shunned like the black plague. East or west home will always best (unless your people are quite savage & made you an outcast).

For example when you were growing up you wanted to leave your parents house & be on your own. Well here you are, even after all those years on your own you still feel as if something is missing. You yearn to be with your folks, to be cared for, to be guided & advised (even though at times it was not by choice). Likewise, here in our motherland we are in a land of plenty. 

The valuable minerals, the scenic routes, the steady weather (yes I know it is chilly but would you have prefered that it be snowing, I didn't think so!), nature at its best, the wildlife & so on. All these are to be appreciated & we may only live once but we better make sure that each moment counts. Never ever forget where you came from, for it is your people who will have your back when you have no where else to go. 

"You may move out of the village but you can not take the village out of you".

African Proverb 

IF YOU HAVE FAMILY, YOU ARE RICH.

 

How the days progress at a stacato, depending on the mood at that particular hour, maybe that definite minute or that second. One time it is daylight then all of a sudden nightfall creeps in like a ghost out to haunt its victims. At times family is what makes some of us to wake up early in the morning & go make that money.

A wife who supports you even in the darkest of times, children who adore you as their hero & role model can motivate you to strive to provide the best & be better than the rest. How we wish that we could live the fairy tale lives, where we are a single unit through the thick & thin of life. Ooh well, there is nothing in this life which is an impossibility.

 

Family to some of you may mean putting arms around each other & being there for each other. To others it may be the shoulder one needs to lean on in the craziest of times, the hand to give support in the wake of each day or just a listening ear when a lot clouds your mind. It is indeed noteworthy that the love of family is a much more vital than wealth & privilege.

"I may not always be with you, but when we are far apart. Remember you will be with me, right inside my heart".

Such colourful words that express how we are meant to feel on the inside, soothing our loved ones when they are far away. The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect & joy in each other's life. Rarely do members of one family grow up under the same roof.

You must remember, family is often born of blood, but it doesn't depend on blood. Nor is it exclusive friendship. Family members can be your best friends & best friends, whether or not they are related to you, can be family. Family is a whole new level of wealth that can't be compared to any other bond & can never be bought, remember that always.

IT ALL STARTS WITH YOU.

 

I tell you being an adult is a lot of hard work, you have to think, rethink, counter-think every decision that you make, cause you never know when disaster will or might strike next. It is said that a wise man makes his own decisions but an ignorant man follows the opinion of the public.

We have a choice about what happens to us in our life & whether or not we let it to turn us. At times we can allow ourselves to be consumed by hate & darkness or we can decide to regain our humanity somehow & come to terms with things learning about ourselves. 

"The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross & which to burn".

Too often in life, something happens & we blame other people for the lack of being happy, satisfied or fulfilled. This is the point am putting across to you, we all have choices & we make the choice to accept people or situations or yield to the demise of our indecisiveness.

I have not lived a perfect life. I have regrets, but that is from a lifetime of taking chances, making decisions & trying not to be stagnated in particular place in my life. The only thing that I could do with my regrets was to try & understand them.

"Do not plant your dreams in the field of indecision, where nothing ever grows but the weeds of 'what if".

I think most of us are raised with preconceived notions of the choices we are supposed to make. We waste so much time making decisions based on someone else's idea of happiness, what will make you a good citizen, a good wife, daughter, husband or son.

Sometimes in order to follow our moral compass & our hearts, we have to make unpopular decisions or stand up for what we believe in. It can be difficult & even frightening to go against the grain, whether it is a personal disagreement with a friend, a partner or a family member or a professional decisions that affects others.

Our fate is determined by how far we are prepared to push ourselves to stay alive. The decisions we make to survive. We must do whatever it takes to endure & make it through alive.

KEEP IT TOGETHER & FORGE ONWARDS.

I have been asking myself this question over & over, "when will we shed this artificial skin that we expose to those around us?". Put more simply, are we really whom we claim to be. Lets take an illustration or two. Have you ever seen that lady in the office who is always laughing & smiling like as if the world is at her feet, do you want to tell me her life is that good or maybe it is what do I know. What of that guy who is the most timid & quiet of the lot, always polite, never raises his voice & understands what it is to be a gentleman or is he some smooth operating psychopath waiting for his next victim, I guess we will never know. 

"When you smile about the life you live, you end up living a life worth smiling about".

Maybe am just losing my mind & just blubbering about some unimportant aspect of life that need not see the light of day. Or maybe am just seeing life from a different point of view with the way the world is revolving things are getting way out of control. We are wolves in sheep clothing, living a life far from what is our actual reality. You may put yourself out there to be quite the mister money bags, yet your own home languishes in the lack of even the basic of needs. The illusion which we create, showing that we are having such a good life does take its toil on you once you realize that you can't keep up with the pretext.

"Any fool can be happy when times are good. It takes a strong soul with real heart to develop smiles out of situations that make us weep".

Drop that mask or else you will lose your true identity. Am not saying that you air you torn or dirty linen in public, but more so that you live within your own means. Because this habit of spending money, time on people you don't like, to impress people who don't give a hoot about you is going to make you tear your hair from its root. We make our lives what we want it to be, for we have the choice of bettering how we feel both on the outside & on the inside. If how you are feeling on the inside is not in sync with how you feel on the outside then Watson we have a problem.

"If you take another step & another, you will be surprised to know how far you can go from the point you thought was the end".

If your ying is not flowing at the same tune as your yang, chaos is definitely bound to be unleashed. This is not to jab at you & am not stating that your life needs to be all rosy for even roses have thorns. As you have heard a number of times over & over that happiness is indeed an inside job. If you are not in your right state of mind you may suffer from Medusa's touch. Everything you will touch will crumble like a poorly baked piece of pottery. Live your life knowing that you are the determining factor as to how it will turn out.

Let it be known that it is not what happens to you, but it is how you respond to the outcome that matters the most. Count your blessings while the rest of the masses are adding up their troubles.

I AM NOT AN OPTION.

 

 

"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery & today is a gift, that is why it is called the present". It is indeed a true statement of the chronicle of life, if only most of us could take its meaning at heart & actualize on its true essence & meaning. In this life you will learn quick enough that you should never allow someone to be your priority while you are their option.

It is said that the easiest part about having a crush is the fall, the hard part is where you are to pull yourself back up when you have been hurt & the other person doesn't even know it. If you ever hear your past speaking to you, feel it tugging at your back & running its greasy fingers up your spine, the best thing to do - the only thing to do is run & never look back like Lot's wife who disobeyed God & turned into a pillar of salt. (I think that is what happened).

"You have got to dance like there is nobody watching. Love like you will never be hurt. Sing like there is nobody watching. And live like it is heaven on earth".

Am not saying that you will never get hurt but you have to ensure that you don't bruise easily. We become so blinded by the relations we have with others that we neglect our well-being & get subjected to harm. Do not ask yourself why someone keeps hurting you but rather ask yourself, "why am I allowing them to hurt me". 

The most powerful & deadliest of artillery we possess as humans is Words. These are singularly the most powerful force available to humanity. We can choose to use this force in a constructive manner like encouraging others or in a destructive phase by using words of despair. Words have the energy, power & ability to help, to heal, to harm, to humiliate & to humble. Choose what you utter with a lot of caution & be the best of you.

IS IT REALLY THAT IMPORTANT?

Old age indeed has its perks. You no longer rave till the wee hours of the morning, this days if you are out with a couple of friends & it is nearing 10:30pm you would be howling your head off wanting to go home. Getting into a matatu playing loud music is a no go zone, all one wants is some peace & quiet. Now to top it all, remember all those times you were nagging your parents you wanted money, well guess what! It is now your turn. 

Ask around, once you are done with your academia you will understand the true meaning of adulthood. Bills will not just get automatically paid off. Oooh no, you have to figure out how you are getting that mulla, otherwise you & the landlord are going to lock heads. Welcome to that sweet older age you wanted. It started with you wanting to be 18, so that you can get an I.D. to avoid the tussles you had with the bouncer who barred you at the club & denied you entry stating you are  underage. 

Then there comes good 21, which comes with sweet niceties like now having the capacity to enter those pure adult joints for some private pleasantries. Finally you get to be 25 & now your parents have you on speed dial. The call is always goes like, "Son I need some cash for such & such". The call gets disconnected & you have to comply. If you neglect to comply, your mum goes all  spartan on you with the maternal blackmail. 

She starts off, "I carried you for 9 months, took care of you to this age & this is how you repay me". Eiish! This life is no cupcake my friend, these days you prefer having things more simplified. Having lesser friends becomes the norm, the thing of having 100s of friends ended with the back stabbing phenomena. If those whom you trust can fit into a single palm the better. 

You no longer make it rain in the club, nowadays you draw a budget of how you shall spend each & every cent. Ensuring that all your bills get paid or else you will sing the song of your people. Every decision made has to be accounted for, not just throwing care to the wind. Thus the number of things that matter in your life become, fewer & fewer with advancing age, now that is the cost to be bore as the years progress.